Sitting here listening to a hymn CD. Dishes waiting to do, cpap to fill, check cpap supplies, call them, but here I sit. Answering robo calls, one after another. I hate the ones with no one speaking, no recording. Here's a link about it. https://www.yellowpages.ca/tips/whats-the-silence-behind-a-silent-call/  if you are interested.   I hate to tell them the advise about listing your number with National Do Not call is a big laugh.

Mr.Grey needs a nail trim. Can't get him to use the new scratching post. He plays under it and has only managed to get a foot on the edge.  While he accepts us there is no way I can wrap a towel around him while daughter clips his nails. Not ready to try shoving him in the carrier and paying a vet a horrible price to do it.  Doubt any groomer around has the experience. He still falls in the category of an outside stray. I have two pieces of a tree and he isn't using it. Maybe I should ask Juan for the largest piece of his cut tree.

I love this cat but now I have to watch Wil going out the front door. Wil does not move fast enough. Wil still calls him 'the black cat'.

I'm still grocery shopping online or having Carissa pick up. She is having trouble with her knee and back so I don't want to ask her. When Wil and I have to go out I use double masks as most have a gap in the side. I'm more concerned about oh shoot the name has gone from my mind. The only thing I can think of is  oh wait mutations.

With the media reporting Spring Breaks etc. I don't have any hope the virus is going to leave this world. Shoot it's 4:31 p.m. gotta get to the kitchen.

I already set two clocks, about 4 left, two of those radio's.  Got my grocery order in, forgot cat food and breakfast bread. Lordy just added the cat food and forgot the breakfast bread....geez....order over $100 for the first time in a long time.  Picked deliver 8-9 a.m. which is kind of silly as church starts at 9:30 and I always hurt the most in the morning.

This coming week will be the second try at the placenta back injection. I sure hope it works this time. I was surprised to learn Medicare approves it and recommends it. I did forget to ask how many times they allow it.  I am pleased today I only took my pain med once and will take it at bedtime to help me sleep. I try not to turn over as that is what causes so much pain.

Tomorrow Carissa is trying a recipe called cabbage steaks. She has to cut the cabbage etc. I would end up with coleslaw size. lol She also is giving me her larger monitor I guess so I can put the world atlas back on the shelf.   I hope she figured the size right as my computer and the Spectrum box won't move anywhere else.

Wil just came back but he won't sit down and watch and I had FB screen up while I tried to gather my thoughts. He did ask if he got the mail today. He often checks the mailbox during a day. I started to type and he came back again.   Evenings are when sometimes something strange will pop out of his mouth.  A far away thought or maybe some confusion.

Time to wrap up should run antivirus tonight will do it tomorrow.

I can find no where in this editor to change my font, so I'll change color. lol If I knew html that would be no problem I suppose. 

So of course the next paragraph comes up black and I either will change it or just go with the flow. Today turned out to be a better back day for me considering I was on my feet more than usual. I took my pain pill when I got up as told to do, but no more the rest of the day. I even drove up to pick up a prescription and drive thru had not opened yet so I parked and went in the store. I could of set out there for 15 minutes as it didn't occur to me when I got in the store a line would be waiting there. 

After lunch I got Wil to go outside with me while I trimmed the dead off the lilies. The one closest to the house had more dead for some reason than the one out front of the bed. I got smart and carried my lawn chair off the porch to sit and do all the trimming. I had Wil bring the green recycle bin around and I got the cuttings as close to him as I could, but he still stepped in the bed on the larkspur coming up.   I transplanted a couple iris plants among the rock edge. Then I watered all of it.

The freeze got our neighbor's orange tree and they don't know if it will come back. For some reason they trimmed all the bottom limbs off so if it does return it will be harder for them to get fruit up at the top. They haven't for years. 

I kind of wish the tree was gone as I picked up a lot of rotten fruit and I don't need to be bending over. Yeah I got tired of scrolling back up to change color.

Mr. Grey has adapted quite well to Wil and I but he still runs when Carissa comes. He now gets up in my lap in the recliner. Unfortunately when he gets up in the morning and eats he thinks it is play time and that is when I am at my worst. He has managed to lose all 6 ping pong balls in this house and I can't find them. I wonder how many he may have knocked in the garage. Guess I buy more. He does play with the tennis ball.  I've bought a scratching post and spread catnip all over it and he has yet to use it. Only been here a day.

I have been unable to schedule us for our vaccine and our stupid Governor opened up the State to no masks etc. He's a Republican and must of inherited some of the previous presidents thinking. So we will still wear masks and stay home as much as possible. I still order groceries and doctor's are where we usually go.

I still color and put them up on FB. I'm way behind on housework and it continues to wait.

Got word this morning my online order for groceries was cancelled. Lack of supplies due to the storm. OK I understand that but I will bet they aren't closing the door to the store until it is stocked. Well Wal Mart does sell more than groceries.  But how about "we will fill your order as soon as we can"?  Oh there is a link to reorder but I'm so ticked I'd like to take my business elsewhere. But where?

We lost our electric one day from noon to 3:55 p.m. so when it did come back on you didn't know when to prepare a meal? Couple times we ate evening meal early. Electric has stayed on but they ask we still conserve. I lowered the thermostat to 73 today but just won't go to 68.

To add to all of this was boil your water. I

have a galley kitchen, little counter space. I have only one big pot to use to boil water. Then only 2 glass containers to put the water in.  I've put the little yellow sieve there to strain whatever that stuff is floating on top. Don't see it in the sieve though.

That is drinking water, coffee pot water, cooking water. I'm wondering why I don't just hard boil some eggs in tap water.  Only have 4 eggs left. So do I scramble, fry or hard boil them?

For our cereal we have a couple little containers of Ensure and Wil did eat it this morning. Now less you think next week I can order again, think again. Those that can go in will strip the shelves unless limits are set. Re living pandemic onset.

Please understand I feel we are blessed and a lot of my attitude is coming from having to use pain medicine regularly. It makes me sleepy and I wouldn't doubt may be the source of some of my forgetfulness or confusion. Like I went to sweep the litter off the floor and got upset because I couldn't get the broom unattached. Problem was I had, I was holding the dustpan pole. sigh...

Poor Wil is reaching the stage where he doesn't know where the coat closet is, right off the kitchen. I caught him going out without his coat to check mail, not realizing I have to hand him his coat.  He doesn't know where the phone is so I may have to wear my pendant in the house too. When I had my stroke it was in the garage, if I would fall and not be able tell him where the phone is... you get the picture.  There are days he doesn't know where the only bedroom is.

He knows we have an animal in the house and garage, but can't seem to remember it is a cat. To him it is a black cat but Mr.Grey in some lights like a darker room, looks black. He still gets a kick out of the cat planting on his feet so I have to remind him he wants petted. As the cat still wants to go sleep in the day in the cold garage I have to be sure the door is cracked as I quit moving the litter in and out.  It's just inside the door but that is the dinning room and I don't know where else it could go here. I can just see the shocked expression on peoples faces. We only eat there on Sunday when daughter comes, or a holiday.

This time is the first time he saw Wil with his soup there. See one day Wil finished his cereal and got the bright idea to set his bowl down in front of Mr.Grey to finish the little milk.  Mistake, I don't feed milk to cats and I don't feed animals from our bowls.  So now just try and walk with a bowl in your hand and step over a cat.  Granted Mr.Grey thinks anything in my hands is food. That's all he saw until caught.

I love this little guy and while it is more work for me he brings some joy with it. Now he just needs to accept Carissa as part of our family. Heck I tell him she owns half of him.

I have not tried to place a food order at Wal Mart this week as roads are Icey, (why is that word a capital?) They look pretty bare right now but I doubt the store is stocked as those that can get in will wipe out what I want like milk. It looks like tomorrow's cereal will have Protein Plus for milk.

Yesterday electric off noon to 3:55 p.m. I stayed off computer in case today it would go off and decided to chance it. Soup and toasted cheese sandwiches were lunch, now what for supper? If you start cooking and power goes off....well you get the picture.

We are fine, last two days I went out and started the car but didn't today. Just dragged trash can back, waited for mail man who said we had no mail yet the email said we did. ???

Wil and I are fine and I cancelled the podiatrist appt. for tomorrow as another storm due in tonight.

I was searching for ping pong balls for the cat, squatted, mistake back I fell. I wonder why I can't squat since the stroke 2 yrs. ago?  Oh I knocked a couple balls out and of course kitty didn't want to play. He wanted out in the cold garage. Does that every day. Guess no place high enough here.

So few read here any more I just don't seem to get to posting.  Not much to talk about. Wil sleeps a lot now. To me more than usual, maybe it is just today. I got up went out after breakfast to get furnace filters, never occurred to me now due to pandemic no more going in office. Shoot it was a small office and you weren't close to the gal across, but only one person could of been in office. Thank heaven I had my cell and called them and was able to get filters. I had 2 left but apparently when Mr. Grey was going up to his penthouse in the garage he stepped on them.  Going to use the last two if I can.

Then it was drive on to the Credit Union for cash. Have been putting that off. Been staying in with my back and getting kitty Mr.Grey used to us and vice versus. Well it was dumb to go on a Monday, long wait. 7 lines of cars. Mine took longer, apparently I forgot to add one number of our account and she had to look it up. sigh... By then I had to come straight home to the bathroom. I bypassed the road I drove on to another and then drove right by  our street and had to turn around.

Wil was up and ate his cereal but forgot how to turn the coffee pot on. I did that, made sure he had his pills and left again to go to Walgreens and get some cards and antacid. I had 4 antacid left, Wil thought they were candy last night and ate 2.  I should not need them but sometimes something will kick my stomach up.  I got mad at myself for getting upset with myself for leaving the bag in sight. Or was I mad at him?  Thankfully he doesn't get in the cupboard where all that stuff is.

By the time I walked in the house both feet and legs 'tingly' and I felt like I was going to drop. I plopped in the recliner and asked Wil to bring me a frap. Of course he hasn't done it in so long I had to give instructions where the bottle was, where the big glass was, how many ice cubes.  Then he brought me a bit of potato salad but wouldn't get himself some. So just now I made him a sandwich and coffee.  That will throw supper off.

I have no evidence that the placenta injection stuff has done any good. I guess I am stuck on pain pills about every 8 hours or less.

Wil's appt. with urologist was sit in the office after nurse check in for about 35 minutes. My 2 masks were killing me with the elastic on one so I took that one off. When doctor came in he had me remove the other so he could hear me. Apparently his hearing is failing and he assured me all the virus checks in the office are negative. After his exam of Wil he put him on an antibiotic and another medicine I forgot the name of. He says he may have an inflammation, of course it could be cancer as well. Will see in April when we go back what his psa is.  He didn't sound hopeful about anything being done if it is cancer due to Wil's age.  All I can do is pray.

Wil's diastolic (lower number) blood pressure has been low and I have been pushing water on him. Today primary answered the note I had mailed to him to take him off the water pill. I could of sent the message in the portal but I don't trust doctor will get it.  Or did I forget I could do that?  lol.

It seems like sometimes I either forget or just can't think straight. Perhaps I'm slipping into dementia too. Carissa tells me I just have to think for two but I think she is just being nice.

She brought me a bamboo luck plant. Years ago I tried to grow one, didn't work. Don't remember why but she says someone has to give it to you.  Not that I believe in that.   I repotted the cactus plants from the big one and I don't think I have the right pot for the one.

I have had to move insulators off the bay window and here in the office. Mr. Grey broke one, I glued it back the best I could and set it up high. I broke a favorite opening a window back here. Thinking ahead to Christmas I think I'll get the little tree out, or put mom's tree on that stand. He has not laid on the stand like our other cats did. He's only learning now how to chase balls and I have to figure out where he knocked them too. Maybe when Tina does the floor she'll find them. This morning I tossed an empty toilet roll and he chased it.

Wil likes to watch him play. I have to remind him when the cat is standing on his feet he wants petted.  He gets a kick out of him when he lays on his feet. I do have to instruct how to step over and walk on though. I enjoy seeing Wil smile and or laugh.

Carissa gave me a little book she wants me to write in.... positive things. She doesn't want to read my journal how my back aches. Well gee that is about all I have other than the cat now.

Was in the 60's today and I'm back in shorts in the house. My sinus hate me. That dratted MucinxDM is pricey so I probably quit taking it to soon. Just went through 6 days of antibiotic. Feel like someone hit the right side of my head with a bat.

This is what else is keep me busy. Meet Mr. Grey. He is the cat last spring I would chase out of our backyard as he hid in the larkspur waiting for the birds landing on the patio tale.  He got the message and I only saw him out front after. He was getting thinner and after Pookie died I started feeding him. Soon he would let me pet his head and I just decided I would try and trap him and get him vaccinated and neutered.

I tried in December no luck. So a couple weeks ago I set the trap in front of the car, covered by a towel and in he went.

My idea was to make him an in and out cat but I changed my mind after a few days.

The vet screwed us. Carissa had talked to them, put $300 on the bill. I knew I would owe $70 for the chip, but did not realize instead of a flat neuter fee they charged for anesthesia and pain meds separately. Should of been part of the neuter cost. So I had to fork over another $381 when I went to pick him up. A cat that cost that much doesn't deserve to get run over outside, or hurt any other way.  Of course I can't pick him up yet but I still can pet him, Wil can pet him. He sticks to me like glue which makes walking touchy for me. I have a hand on a wall or bookcase or the chair. I may as well tie dusters on my feet and clean the floor as I shuffle along.

Friday Carissa will go with Wil for an overnight sleep study. I don't drive at night and tomorrow my back is to be injected with that placenta medicine. I need to get the proper name for it. An old treatment, one my doctor hasn't done so of course he's off this week. I went last week for it and the medicine hadn't come in and they neglected calling me. Wasted my friend Kay's time as you have to have a driver when you use sedation which I do. Daughter gets her back injections without. I used to years ago.

Then Feb. 2nd Wil has an appt. with a urologist as his psa was to high. Hope it is just an age thing. Earlier this month he did his annual VA appt. Dr. told me that he isn't drinking enough water as his diastolic number was too low. So every day check his bp and push water.

Otherwise two old folks, Wil just turned 83 and I'm 81.

Had to work to get the tree down before Gary's Window Cleaning came Jan 8. I couldn't get my curtains down and in the wash so they could re-hang them. They were last here in 2017 and at that time I could get them ready to hang back up. Not this time, Jeff had Michael to help him so they got done sooner.

We have a large front window I do not like open to the public after dark. Daughter wanted me to wait until today. We have a lot of traffic out front, some walking from next door. So I got the first two panels, nylon, ready to go up. I got the little step stool, instructed Wil in each step. He put his hand on my back and that really helped.  Got down and an hour later I figured we could put the other two panels up. We did, same method.

Saturday rolled around and we put the other set up after he ate and had coffee. He stood on the other step stool with instructions again as he didn't remember them from the night before.  Then we headed to the bedroom and hung the last curtains there.

Then I decided I must find someone else to do it next time. That was really too dangerous. Had Wil fallen I couldn't get him back up and had I fallen he probably couldn't get me up. If I can't find someone they will just have to go dirty.

I'm still amazed how hard it was for me threading the nylon ones on the rod. What has happened to my finger dexterity?

It is a light cold rain here today. Mr. Grey has not come to eat though a stray dog was up on the porch looking for food. He's one of 4 strays we have around now.  I'm trying to decide if I will set the trap out for the cat tomorrow. If he goes in I won't be able to lift the trap. Would have to get Wil up. If I caught him Wil would have to get him out of the car to release him. I'm having my back injected Wednesday with embryotic fluid. A last ditch effort to perhaps help.

I have to make an appointment for a new doctor for Wil. A urologist and he is not going to be terribly helpful I'm afraid. His labs were high for prostrate. Hopefully it is just age related.  I also have to take him to a VA clinic this month for his once a year visit. He'll fuss as he just likes to stay around home now.

I'm concerned about the ceremony for the new President. Threats are already made. I think it should be virtual. A good piece about it written here: https://johnpavlovitz.com/2021/01/10/a-nothing-revolution/   I don't see how to link it here.  Maybe that will work.

Neighbor Juan came over and put the radio, record player, tape deck, cd deck and the stand on the dolly and out the door. Came back pull the FM wire down and gone. Immediately I swept years of dust clinging to the floor and wall. Then out came the Swifter mop. While the floor dried I came back to the office and unloaded a bookcase. Boy the box with coins was heavy. That meant buy a new bookcase.

So this morning I got up and went to the garage to get an empty box for some recipe books. As I turned around down I went, hitting the wicker clothesbasket with my arm and my leg it the have a heart trap waiting to go back out in January.  Got myself up, later realized I had my pendent on. That's OK I didn't need Fire rescue for that job.

Tired of looking online, that told me don't bother going to Target or Home Depot. I headed to Big Lots and Good Will. Needed to keep moving so I didn't have muscles stiffen or anything.  Got to Good Will, pulled out the walker, walked to the door, 30 minutes before they open.  So drove up to Big lots. They must of just opened, only saw one employee. Now I ask for a supervisor to see if they would assemble a bookcase. I didn't find one, think that was her shopping.  Back I went to tell him I couldn't bring the bookcase up since he couldn't figure that out.  It was hurting me to stand and wait for the gal with the dolly. My car was the spot nearest but no I had to drive the car to their curb!

Left there, drove home forgot cash for gas. By the time I got to Valero I just pulled the cane out to walk in and pay and a nice man let me cut ahead of him. I must of looked bad. As I took the nozzle out I spilled gas on the car. Hung the nozzle reached in the car for a rag and wiped it off. Here came the clerk with my change!  She went back and got the receipt too.  Did I go home and rest?  Nah.  On to the base for my glasses. Remembered my ID this time and turned out I didn't need it, he remembered me.  He came out with the glasses, wrong frames. Luck for me the ones I ordered were still on the shelf and in a few minutes out the door I went.

I got a few minutes to sit down before getting lunch for us.  Also managed to fill Wil's CPAP reservoir but getting tired walking.  I called Tony to see if he knew how to assemble a bookcase. He came over opened it looked at the directions, no problem. He carried it in the house, then decided his wife was off and could help him so he carried it home.  A little while ago he returned with it.  I had to scrounge around for a tip for him. Took all the dollar bills and a five from Wil I forgot I had given him.  I had gone to the bank yesterday but Tony was standing in the room that housed it and while I trust him I don't let even Wil know where it is.  So I'm back to 5 bookcases in this room and I left the coins where I put them.

Supper will be simple, ham, veggie, instant potatoes. Those are a life saver. 

2 p.m. 67 degrees F.  Mr. G had his breakfast and dinner. Wil is getting a kick out of him for some reason. He watched from behind the door for the lunch feed. I need to figure out where to set the dish as stepping around him so I can go in the house is a challenge. He nailed my arm as I reached over him Thursday, right through the sweat shirt.

Carissa brought a little bag of treats. He won't take one from my fingers. Even if I lay my hand flat in front of him. I think what makes it hard is I have to sit in the chair, can't get ground level with him. He lets me pet him though.  I will try after Christmas to trap him again.

This morning I wanted to play Christmas music. I was filling pill containers. I could not get the CD player drawer to open. While pushing buttons I could here the tray moving, door would not open. Now I can't get the radio to play.  Something else to do after Christmas, find out what I can do with those components. Got rid of all my tapes and records so this whole set up needs gone. It will take a man to move it out. Not going to try and sell it.  I found the manuals that go with it.  Wish I knew some where to donate it.

I need to replace it with something with some shelves as I've nowhere to put the clock etc. that are sitting on the speakers. lol

Today I opened an old album and got a few chuckles reading the editorial cartoons and some cartoon strips I saved. I also found pages with pictures of internet friends. Some I have completely lost touch with, some died. I have another scrapbook newer with editorial cartoons. Need to look for the pictures of our garage door son painted and put them in one of the books. First time he painted comic strip characters then asked to paint a political cartoon. United States with an oil well crutch and money legs if I recall.  Some one from the local paper asked to take a picture of it. He had a personal collection and saw it driving by.

Scott had also painted our garbage cans with comic strip characters. Ought to find that photo. Garbage man liked the cans as I recall.  I bet I've written about this before.  In fact I can't remember what I've been 'talking' about lately.

I see pain management this week. Get to tell him I've used more pills than ever, like they keep trying to get me to do to get a handle. Get to tell him I walked with Wil using cane Thursday. Instead of sitting here right now I should try another short walk. I doubt Wil will go with me again, but I'll ask. I am enjoying listening to cd of Christmas music though.

I have tried standing on one foot with just a finger touching a counter. Immediately my body headed backwards.  I've also tried leaning against a wall but body goes sideways. Every day when I used to go to pool before stroke, long before, I could not do it. Of course trying that in the shower was kind of silly. What if I had fallen?  Getting help to get up could of been embarrassing.  If podiatrist ever brings it up again I will ask him not too. He's young, he's healthy. I can't believe he even brought up getting rides with Lift or Uber in this pandemic time so I hope not to hear that again either.

This month has brought a lot of teary days for me. For the last 2 months daughter has suggested I ask primary for Cymbalta. I checked side effects on it. Also I take Celebrex and it was mentioned in the article.  I'll bring it up to Dr. but I'm reluctant to add any darned pill.  I don't think my primary is one for anti depressants any way. I can understand that. To me they should only be a temporary thing. Weaning off one would be a problem with my short memory.

Not much in news here. This morning when Wil took his pills he put the pill thing up in the cupboard where the Sweet and Lo is. I found them quite by accident thankfully or tonight I would of been looking all over. I'm sure he had poured his coffee and just stuck them up there.  I was here at church. I suppose the day is coming I will have to hand them and stand by.