February 8, 2021

• Seems always behind

  So few read here any more I just don't seem to get to posting.  Not much to talk about. Wil sleeps a lot now. To me more than usual, maybe it is just today. I got up went out after breakfast to get furnace filters, never occurred to me now due to pandemic no more going in office. Shoot it was a small office and you weren't close to the gal across, but only one person could of been in office. Thank heaven I had my cell and called them and was able to get filters. I had 2 left but apparently when Mr. Grey was going up to his penthouse in the garage he stepped on them.  Going to use the last two if I can.

  Then it was drive on to the Credit Union for cash. Have been putting that off. Been staying in with my back and getting kitty Mr.Grey used to us and vice versus. Well it was dumb to go on a Monday, long wait. 7 lines of cars. Mine took longer, apparently I forgot to add one number of our account and she had to look it up. sigh... By then I had to come straight home to the bathroom. I bypassed the road I drove on to another and then drove right by  our street and had to turn around.

  Wil was up and ate his cereal but forgot how to turn the coffee pot on. I did that, made sure he had his pills and left again to go to Walgreens and get some cards and antacid. I had 4 antacid left, Wil thought they were candy last night and ate 2.  I should not need them but sometimes something will kick my stomach up.  I got mad at myself for getting upset with myself for leaving the bag in sight. Or was I mad at him?  Thankfully he doesn't get in the cupboard where all that stuff is.

  By the time I walked in the house both feet and legs 'tingly' and I felt like I was going to drop. I plopped in the recliner and asked Wil to bring me a frap. Of course he hasn't done it in so long I had to give instructions where the bottle was, where the big glass was, how many ice cubes.  Then he brought me a bit of potato salad but wouldn't get himself some. So just now I made him a sandwich and coffee.  That will throw supper off.

  I have no evidence that the placenta injection stuff has done any good. I guess I am stuck on pain pills about every 8 hours or less.

  Wil's appt. with urologist was sit in the office after nurse check in for about 35 minutes. My 2 masks were killing me with the elastic on one so I took that one off. When doctor came in he had me remove the other so he could hear me. Apparently his hearing is failing and he assured me all the virus checks in the office are negative. After his exam of Wil he put him on an antibiotic and another medicine I forgot the name of. He says he may have an inflammation, of course it could be cancer as well. Will see in April when we go back what his psa is.  He didn't sound hopeful about anything being done if it is cancer due to Wil's age.  All I can do is pray.

  Wil's diastolic (lower number) blood pressure has been low and I have been pushing water on him. Today primary answered the note I had mailed to him to take him off the water pill. I could of sent the message in the portal but I don't trust doctor will get it.  Or did I forget I could do that?  lol.

  It seems like sometimes I either forget or just can't think straight. Perhaps I'm slipping into dementia too. Carissa tells me I just have to think for two but I think she is just being nice.

  She brought me a bamboo luck plant. Years ago I tried to grow one, didn't work. Don't remember why but she says someone has to give it to you.  Not that I believe in that.   I repotted the cactus plants from the big one and I don't think I have the right pot for the one.

  I have had to move insulators off the bay window and here in the office. Mr. Grey broke one, I glued it back the best I could and set it up high. I broke a favorite opening a window back here. Thinking ahead to Christmas I think I'll get the little tree out, or put mom's tree on that stand. He has not laid on the stand like our other cats did. He's only learning now how to chase balls and I have to figure out where he knocked them too. Maybe when Tina does the floor she'll find them. This morning I tossed an empty toilet roll and he chased it.

  Wil likes to watch him play. I have to remind him when the cat is standing on his feet he wants petted.  He gets a kick out of him when he lays on his feet. I do have to instruct how to step over and walk on though. I enjoy seeing Wil smile and or laugh.

  Carissa gave me a little book she wants me to write in.... positive things. She doesn't want to read my journal how my back aches. Well gee that is about all I have other than the cat now.

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