November 7, 2020

  • Darn it

    I should be used to pain by now but I'm so tired of it! When I post on FB I'm in pain is there any offers to help? No instead I get likes! Yes I know that simply means they read the post.

    Got up late, 6 a.m. and when I got to the window in the birds room and put the shade up and opened the window there was Mr. Grey.

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    He is feral, comes close to feed, but if I move he backs up. Way up often. I have a chair on the porch and I have to sit to feed him and get the plate down.  I talk to him while he eats and this morning as he pushed food off the plate he did not run when I reached to put it back.

    He comes right up to the door and looks in as I go out. I'm glad he doesn't run in as I can't touch him so I wouldn't be able to pick him up unless I tossed a towel over him.

    I've made a crate with straw in it over by the garage door so for winter he can go in.  Yes skunks or possums might end up in it. I don't care if Mr. Grey isn't using it. :-)

    I miss having no pet but it is OK I really have to much trouble with my back and legs to have one, plus Wil needs care. Yesterday I was so busy unpacking his new jeans I didn't over see his pill taking and he didn't get up until noon so I was making sure he ate his breakfast.  I hurt to much to worry about lunch, I threw a sandwich together for me as he had his cereal and coffee.  Some days I wish we had Meals On Wheels but we don't qualify as I have a car. Plus we used to deliver those and so much they have he would not eat. Anything in the squash family is out for him.  I used to buy squash and Pookie and I could share it.  :-) He ate his mom's pumpkin pie but hated it.

    Last week I got to see Dr. Martinez pain management instead of the nurse practioner.  Or was that week before last? lol  Now I forgot what he said the CT scan showed other than the severe something or other in my back that I've had. I was near tears as I asked if he felt like my primary that I just have to learn to live with it. Though primary doc was talking about esophagus problem. He had no idea why ablation failed or if my fall rescuing pups on the last one may have had a cause.  He wants to use the steriod again to maybe get a handle on this inflammation. So this week we will do that. Of course Doc took this week off so someone I have never even seen in the practice will do it.  He wants me to consider the placenta injection that has been around many years.

    The only problem with injections is having to have a driver. Wil no longer drives, my choice.

    I have to try everything, I need to be able to walk without the pain waist down. Bad enough I will have the esophagus problem and now the right shoulder and this week I've been waking with pain in my hands. ?? arthritis I suppose. People just stare at me when I have said I am not interested in living to 90. I wish only to take care of Wil and if he goes I would like to follow.

    Depressed? I guess.

Comments (8)

  • Dear Sandra yes I have a pain management. I see them Wednesday for another try at steriod. Maybe down the road I can get scheduled for the old placental injection. Steriods have never held for me.

  • Mary we have Meals On Wheels here but since I have a car I wouldn't qualify. Besides Wil wouldn't eat half their stuff. I order from Wal Mart and this morning they delivered half and I had to get on the phone to get the rest!

    Our daughter will shop for us as well. I just wish there was someone to help fix meals when I hurt so bad. Wil can't even make a sandwich any more.

  • You're not alone. Getting old means getting pain. Wives are caregivers and we hang in there to care for our husbands and families to the end. My sister, 85, has free food delivered to her house. It helps keep seniors safe from covid. There's local govt agencies that do if you call. It saves her time and work. You'd qualify, I'm sure. The food arrives weekly and is based on the food groups. Best to you and your husband.

  • Bonnie, I don't know why I used to not be able to leave a comment here on your blog but now I can. So cool!

    I'm so sorry you're always in pain. I really am. Do you go to a Pain Management Doctor? If not, please ask your Primary doctor to give you a referral, if necessary.

    If you already do see a pain doctor, please talk to her or him. Please, dear Bonnie. Even if you've been before, try it again.

    Love you,
    Sandy

  • @fauquet: when you can no longer go to get groceries and other stores, yes.

    I will go to the Feed Store as I know hours low in customers.

  • @BLB: Personally I don't like much the modern ways to pay but sometimes we are forced to use them.

  • @fauquet: I signed up online where I can watch what happens. I think I'm OK now if I just felt like making a grocery order I'd find out.

  • Dear Bonnie, I think we can shake our hands above the ocean because, like you, I have also my pack of sores and lack of strenght.
    Please keep high spirit.
    What reassure me is you do not loose your humor .
    Love Michel
    ps : Finally how did your problem of card of the previous post ended ?

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