| |  Last week while checking zips I found this picture Scott took while in FL years ago. Since he had emailed it to me it didn't have the exact location and he worked one place and visited the Keys. Your guess is as good as mine and of course he can't tell me now.
Last Sunday we missed daughter as she was exhausted from a week of work and didn't care to drive any where. Today we missed her again as she overslept apparently and felt like crud from whatever blew in with the storms. I told her mold is high.
So we have enough spaghetti left over and its probably one of the better ones I've done. Had to be the sauce from the jar. Forgot the brand, Wil said it had 4 different cheeses in it. Make my own sauce? You are kidding. 
Unable to reach Nancy on the phone. Apparently they are bathing her at 6 p.m. their time and the person on the other end said she doesn't like to talk on the phone either. Imagine not, she's having a time I bet and the girls forgot to tell them they can talk to me. Privacy Act didn't come into question at the other hospital.  I'm glad they are following the rules though.
Just placed a call to her daughter number 1, no answer, a call to daughter no. 2 line busy. Called back no answer. Tried her cell, she was on the other line with the hospital. I asked her to give permission while at it for me to be included in family.
I'd like to know if they have dissolved the clot in her arm and how is her heart rhythm. Hoping they didn't have to shock her yesterday. I must find a quiet place, organize my thoughts so I don't confuse God when I pray about her. My mind just goes all over, or as the Sunday School teacher said today "popcorn thoughts" a problem for him.
Teresa called. They are going down Tuesday. Nancy is on clear liquids now but iv still in. They didn't shock her yesterday, the medication seems to be holding her. She asked if I could be put on the family list but they would rather not right now. I forgot what that scope is they may want to do tomorrow. Imagine it is the one they can see exactly what her heart valves are doing. You know the one they usually do before doing any shocks.  I told you my words are all over my brain, never right at the tip of my tongue or thought.
Truthfully today I just feel like I could cry. No idea which thought going through my head is causing that. I'm feeling rather disenfranchised from group to family to luncheon ladies, whatever I don't know. Maybe that isn't even the proper word I'm looking for. Can't find exactly what I'm trying to express. I'm not being deprived. Disconnect, detached, disengage? I just don't feel part of. Sort of a fish out of water feeling.
I'm also struggling with forgiveness when it comes to one person who was very nasty to me and left me at fault for everything that occurred. None of this 'it takes two' with her. She is great at placing blame. Had I chosen not to answer a question, or voice an opinion I would of been fine. Sometimes instant messaging is not a good thing.
It would help had I not been born with such thin skin.
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