June 26, 2021

  • One down, one to go

    theTank  8:30 a.m. Tony and I headed out to Car Max. I had already done an online thing and had a quote and that turned out exactly what they offered.  Book value, $4,600 more than the fancy dealer had offered.

    It did take an hour and a half to do the paperwork and cut the check. When she handed me the license plates and turned away Tony said 'let's go' and dummy here did. I hadn't been handed my paperwork and check but the lady ran me down before I got far.  Talk about feeling silly.

    I only started to cry when I pulled Carissa's license out of my purse rather than mine. I hope Carissa is looking down and saying "job well done mom".  Monday the check goes into the account that will hold all estate monies.

    I'm sitting here with Sparkle in my lap and I started to cry. A bad move as my sinus are really messed up and this isn't helping. For days my right eye has watered and I finally remembered what to do with it but now the nose is stuffed up.  Sparkle just made me laugh looking back while I blew my nose.  I don't ever remember any of my cats that could bend their head backwards like she does.

    Wil was fine that hour, I had his breakfast ready and coffee and had put cookies in that jar. I called him while waiting, he then saw his cereal. :-) When I got home talking about my morning it was obvious he really didn't understand. He did though that car was gone and asked who got the money so some comprehension was there.

    When I put her license plates on the shelf I pulled Wil's truck plates down. Past time to bend those. He doesn't remember his truck.  I'll do hers eventually of course. Well Sparkle had enough and just got off my lap.

    Think I'll go dust stuff now. That ought to help my sinus. (when done)

Comments (6)

  • Dear sweet Bonnie, Words come hard at a time like this. I remember after losing my son 24 years ago, I couldn't sleep and was surfing the inrernet and came across your journal. I started reading and before I knew, it was daylight. I'd made it through the night. Each night I'd go to your journal and read your entry for the day. Another night you got me through. Losing a child is the hardest pain we'll ever go through. If we can survive that then there isn't anything we can't survive. Your a strong lady with lots to deal. I wish I was closer to you I'd give ya a big hug . Stay strong, your thought of often and your part of my cyber family Mary in Mi

  • Well Sue I deposited checks today and did a dental cleaning and I'm bushed. I can 'feel' her approval.

  • Bonnie, I am so glad that you got the better price for Clarissa's car and I'm sure that if possible, she was indeed looking down on you with a smile. Please be proud of yourself in all that you are accomplishing and give yourself a pat on the back. I know I'm amazed by all the tasks that you are getting done during this time.

  • thank you Mary and Rosemary.

  • I recently read a book by Deepax Chopra where he says we should have "emotional resilience". Regardless of our day to day stresses, the loss of our beloved children, I lost a baby 47 years ago, we must find the will to carry on. It's got to be the hardest thing God asks of us. But we woman are the champions when it comes to reaching in and pulling out our reserved strength. I'd say you deserve a gold medal. Blessings ❤️

  • Bravo Bonnie! You have accomplished so much in a short span of time and am sure Clarissa is surely saying well done. Take care of yourself you need TLC too.

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